Goal Weight

I guess it's one of those days when I feel like blogging (rambling) a lot.

I've been thinking about goal weight. According to Dr. Marchesini, it's 250 lbs and with plastics, I'd probably end up in the 200-225 range. I think I have a lot of excess skin. That would mean, I am also about 60 lbs away from that goal which would also mean I've lost 77% of my excess weight so far. Right now I am about an 18 on top and a 26 on bottom. 60lbs from now, I'm not sure where I'd end up. At one point, I had said my goal was 175 lbs, but I have pretty much tossed that out. That is probably way too low for me I think, especially considering my height and bone structure. It would give me a normal weight BMI, but I'm not sure that is healthy. Right now I think I've settled on 199.8 lbs, which puts me at I think around 65% EWL. I am cool with that plus it puts me solidly in the overweight BMI category, at 250 lbs, I'd still be considered obese. I do believe those 25 lbs make a big difference and most importantly, I have to see onderland. I've heard so many tales of how wonderful it is there, I'd like to see for myself. An acceptable compromise would be around 225 lbs pre-plastics. I know I'd have 20+ lbs of skin, at least, and after all is said and done, I'd be stable in the 200 lbs range anyway.

When I think about it, there are a few more milestones for me before I hit goal, special weights that when I hit will mean something. The most immediate one is 299. I was probably 18 years old the last time I weighed 299. Then there's 257, the weight I weighed when I left for college when I was at the doctor's office trying every trick I could think of to manipulate his scale. Then there's 216 lbs so that I might say I've lost an even 300 and the last one is 199.8 itself.

I know I will need plastic surgery. Looking at my arms and thighs, I know by the time I hit goal, it'll be necessary, but honestly, I'm in no rush to have surgery again AND from what I hear it's like 10 times more painful. Truth be told, the only thing that sucked about the DS surgery was getting up and out of bed, but then that was a non issue after awhile. I never had any serious pain.

Size-wise, a dream would be to wear a size 10 jeans, but I'm not sure with my structure (specifically my hips!) that's going to happen. I'd be content in 12/14s. The next several months will tell the tale as far as sizes go. My bottom half has some catching up to do.

Right now I am wearing one of the many company shirts I have kept that I've acquired through the years that I never got to wear. It's an XL and I half can't believe I have it on. It's been almost 11 months and it still boggles the mind. I find myself trying on clothes that have long since become way to big and I try to comprehend that I was that big. What really trips me out is that it's hard to believe that I am as different as the difference really is, if that makes any sense. I look at my favorite shirt that I mentioned a few days ago and it looks like a tarp you'd cover a boat with. It's just absolutely insane...

Yeah well, hump-day is nearly over so only a couple more days of massive boredom and it's the weekend. Maybe if I am lucky the doctor's office will call and schedule my endoscopy for Friday so I won't have to go to work!