26 November 2007

Ho, hum...

So nothing exciting is going on in my life right now. I thwarted a hacker this morning which was mildly exciting and somewhat fulfilling, especially since I am no network guru. It looks like I will be spending Christmas here in Atlanta. That could be a good or bad thing, depending on the attitude I choose to take about it. I would have like to go home, but being that it's the end of the year, I have way too much work to try to get done before January 1st. My dad is certainly disappointed, but I was just there in September so he can't be too mad. I will probably head home for my birthday in February though, there is an Indian casino a few hour's drive from my parents and they have expressed an interest in going so I will try to make that happen.

I went online and purchased some fleece pullovers from Old Navy. These are men's because the women's are just too damn short, it's annoying. I got 2XL because I knew I'd be layering and frankly I just don't know how well they will fit. We'll see, should be getting them in a couple of days. If they are too big (which is a real possibility) then I will gladly return.

I have this great long sleeve grey shirt that I think I've mentioned previously is my absolutely favorite shirt. It truly pains me that it is way too big and I am having a time actually giving it away. I loved that shirt, it was go-to shirt, y'know. When all else failed, I had this shirt. I look like a ripe fool wearing it and I can't even lounge around the house in it because it uncomfortably big. Sigh. I guess I am that type of person, sentimental like crazy. I think I get that from my mom, my father is much more practical. Anyway, I love that shirt. Alls I need is a pair of jeans or two from Walmart/Ross/TJ Maxx and I'm good to go for the winter.

I have the same problem with my car. I drive an 8 year old American car, it's bordering on being a piece a crap, I affectionately call it "The batmobile". It's the first car I bought all on my own without any financial support from anyone (dad) and it's completely paid off. Part of me is like, I can certainly afford it, I should go ahead and get a better car, but the other part of me is like "Are you crazy? You have a fully functioning vehicle, that's paid for and your insurance is pretty cheap....plus it's your first car!" So I still drive it. I can't seem to break away. I can definitely say I want another car, but I don't want to give up my current car...we've been through so much together!

Actually, you can characterize my life like that. It seems I have been more than willing to cling to certain aspects of the life of "Fat Tia" that I don't need to cling to. It's not only hard to change those behaviors/beliefs but it's often hard to recognize them in the first place. I should be out there in the world enjoying life, but often find myself opting to stay close to home. That's definitely fear at work there. I don't know, I think I found my resolution for 2008, "Overcome the Fear!"



Anonymous Catherine said...

I love reading your blog...you are truly amazing :)

When I read your resolution for 08, It reminded me of one of my favorite quotes

"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.”
Anais Nin

:) Catherine from Seattle
DS w/ Dr. M in Brazil 8/7/07
cmsinwa at yahoo dot com

November 27, 2007 at 1:30 AM  
Blogger Change for Good said...

Great resolution for the new year Tia!

November 27, 2007 at 5:14 PM  

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